Hmmm rainy lazy days over Christmas break. Back in the ocean yessss. Relieved some crazy withdrawal symptoms I'd had back at school. Phew. Not much new. Kauai is boring when there is no surf. Oh yeah. Happy Birthday to me. Not real exciting but I did light a sparkler and say woo hoo. I guess I'm saving my pent up party animal for New Year's tonight.

Hmmm, life's a trip. Off at college, 's like a whole new world. Miss the surf. Miss my sister. Preoccupied by the things to see and do. Frickin frigid, I'll be up boarding soon. Can't wait. Might add some shit to the gallery wish it were spactacular, but it's not. It's hard not to get lost, to feel inadequate, and insignificant on the big college campus. I feel six.

Whew. I'm back. I was a deviantart addict and quit cold turkey. It's been weeks. Oops. Lifes hectic. Nk, apologizing for emo journal entries. Sorry I shoulda spared ya. And I will try to refrain from so many "FuCks" sorry if I offended any of ya'll. well, I'm off to partake in the incineration and inhalation of an illicit substance. Jah love, roots and all that hippie shit to ya homies. Peace out. Catcha on the flip side aight?

Ha ha sorry my journals have been/are so fucking ridiculous. I'm such a petty cheeseball. He He I've been sick for the past coupla days and I found this cough medicine that is REALLY COOL . nah nah nah kids don't do drugs but um it feels like i'm flying. Woo. Hey remember that saying "when pigs fly" geeze like fo reals. anything can happen now ya'll, cuz this piggy is higher than a mutherfuker. he he he

Whew, so uh I made it through the week, the whole month of January actually. What a fucking month it was. In a mere 31 days I knew death of friends, of pets (not my own thank God), family, my social self (When the whole school knows you have seizures there is a bit of stigma that goes along with it. Well, most days I don't even brush my hair, so I guess their perception of me isn't changed much), and I almost died again of guilt. So now I am actually revelling in life, the glory of life, our fragile existence. So kids, DON't DRINK AND DRIVE!!! Sisters, people, I don't understand the addiction of self harm, but please don't get rushed to the emergency room. It's too scary, I can't help but let the guilt consume me. What if they never found you.... Dogs shouldn't die, especially ones like Sadie, my Granpa's happy rollie polie puppy. Stay in touch with uncles and aunties and family, you never know. Whether you deserve it or not, your brain could go berzerk at any moment, or you could die just like THAT. Life is precious guys, thanks for spending the time to read my rantings... peace out.